a new worry

wednesday i went for an ultrasound to check out 2 large fibroids on my uterus.
fibroids are benign...however if they begin to grow they as my obgyn says, they are "talking to us " and we need to pay attention. they cannot be removed only a hysterectomy solves the problem...
they have been there a few years and grew just a little last year....then i put them totally out of my mind during the breast cancer ordeal and now it was time to go back and check on them....
the technician was very gentle and sweet - the internal wand used to take the pictures is very invasive nd uncomfortable but she was very compassionate.
i won't know the results yet and am holding all good thoughts that they have just gone to sleep and are not saying anything......join me in holding such thoughts....
i am scared and worried till i get the results.....
yesterday i had ben here for a play day so i was focused on the joy of an amazng 3 yr old to distract my fears......... we had a lot of fun creating stories and acting them out.... and also some rest...... he took a nap and so i laid down for a while.....