Add it to the pile of things that suck !!!
A very long appointment with the eye retina specialist and dozens of pictures with very high tech computerized cameras has found the culprit.....pictures of the retina found a jelly like thing which was supposed to have floated away ...it is attached lightly to the retina - SO they have to go get it !!!!
it's an outpatient surgery but does require anaesthesia and someone digging around in my retina ...here come the fear mongers once again
this is not mandatory - the "thing" can just sit there, but it is in my direct line of vision and very bothersome so i need to get it out....
it's my choice as to when to schedule it so i need to find 5 days with nowhere to go as i won't be able to drive .....
i am so tired of the universe bringing these things that hold me captive...and the old adage that "there is a lesson in everything" just doesn't work for me.....
Meanwhile I'm to start supplements of fishoil, eye vitamins and blueberries which they just discovered improved night vision !! i do love blueberries but they sure are expensive....wish i could grow them, but i hear they are difficult to get going in this part of the country....

spring morning

may spring enchant the new life,
shy and hesitant within me,
and set the rhythm for my sluggish feet
in a dance of holy yearning.

Author unknown

the eyes have it............

for the last few months i have noticed a blurring of vision in one eye and difficulty reading.....since i onoly have my eyess examined 1x yearly and it had only been 5 months - i ignored it for a while.......now it is too aggravating to ignore, so........
another dr visit (I don't have enough) ! turned up somewhat of a mystery...my eyesight has gone from 20/20 to 20/ 80 in just a few months....dr not sure why - medications ??? macula isues , growth of a cataract....?
i do have a cataract which may need removal if that turns out to be the culprit
more tests coming to eliminate and/or explain changes.....
i am a little concerned as my dad had macular degeneration and it is hereditary, so hopefully it's a cataract or drug issue.
the difficulty focusing to read he believes is drug related as he says wearing the pain medication patch that i wear is like being on 2 martini's all the time....
actually it doesn't affect me that way and believe it or not my internist says that my high tolerance for drugs is genetically relate to the alchoholism gene which i carry.....
sooooooo - more tests, more waiting,

the empty house

every morning as i pull up my kitchen blinds i am greeted with the empty house across the street.....
once the site of constant activity with gardening, visits from grandchildren, the dog jumping wildly
to each new sound....
now it stands - empty and silent and a cause for great sadness each morning as i remember days, months and years of activity and love we all shared....
now my memory is one of standing at her bedside as Inger slipped away from all of us knowing our world will never be the same.
I miss you Inger......