autumn amazement

how blessed i am to have this kind of beauty every day.......the season of autumn has brought ms scarecrow and her family to dwell amidst the still blooming roses.... the ones right behind her are new today...
i am saddened that so many people have to worry where they will live as i pick this exquisite single rose to place at my bedside....

how sad it is that the country is in such turmoil with a very few rich white men directing the massive mess we are in..... and isn't it a coincidence that it all unfolds as the election draws closer........
don't tell me this wasn't all part of the plan to undo obama and let it seem like john boy is "saving the country"
let us send our good thoughts and energy to joe biden this week so that he can find the way to not be called a sexist for raising the important questions with princess sarah....
sadly he probably will be called that anyway.......that's the way it still is in this unequal universe we live in........

WEEKEND JOY

how's this for a weekend of pure JOY !!!!!!
having ben for a sleepover and lots of adventures.....just look at that beautiful face !!!!!!!!
and THEN.......
a neil diamond concert sunday nite.... and believe it or not - he can still do it ! was expecting maybe some voice or range loss but wasn't at all disappointed....all the old favorites and some from his newest album- he was on stage 2 hours straight with no intermission..... 5 encores!!!!!!!

I AM BLESSED..........

brain freeze

i wrote about the autumn equinox a week early - no one commented that i was off so that either means no one is reading this or no one knows what the equinox is anyway.....
today is the day !! the day when dark and light are balanced - when things are in balance in nature - i do hope the day brings me that balance -not one of my strong suits.....
-yesterday all my precious boys were here so i felt more than wonderful - the joy they bring is unmeasurable

-today the dog next door won't shut up so that isn't exactly balancing my body and spirit
-the beautiful bittersweet on my dining room table brings me memories of new england autumn which i dearly miss...... i sent for these branches from vermont - they come covered with leaves which you pick off and the heat of the house has all the yellow coverings fall off and the beautiful orange berries appear.....it amazed me what tremendous joy can be found in tiny orange berries!

May balance and a harvest of dreams fill your soul this gorgeous equinox day.....

BALANCE

today we celebrate the autumn equinox - the day when dark and light are equal -balance...........when we acknowledge the harvest of our gifts...
.....this harvest festival traditionally applies to the harvest of foods, yet in this day and age, the 'harvest' may also apply to the 'seeds of dreams and wishes' that were planted many months earlier. Now is the time to see if they have come true. Whether they have come true or not ... a ritual to thank the growing energies of the divine could be performed at this time. Lay upon your altar a sampling of your 'harvest'.... use it freely in a simple ritual........ even if your 'harvest' came up empty, IE: your dreams were not fulfilled, the God and Goddess should still be thanked for the effort put forth in your name.......
my dream of less pain and more energy have not at all been fulfilled - in fact the pain is pretty bad most days and nites.....yet i face the coming change of season with the hope that change can happen in my body......
i lay in bed every nite with the pain from head to toe..... especially in my legs, arms and back
thinking i'll get up and write about it.... but i don't have the energy.....
i lay there crying......what can i do with this pain....? how can i get it to be less? what can i do to keep moving the next day?
mornings , getting out of bed are awful - it takes a few hours to be able to move about.....
the medication that i take every 4 hours is a narcotic which i hate taking AND it doesn't seem to do much but take the edge off....certainly doesn't take the pain away......
there is still no certainty as to what is causing the pain - POLYMYALGIA, the medication Aromosin, arthritis, lymphedema or....???????
the beautiful full moon is watching me as i write.....she is a beautiful sign of light and hope....
I want to believe in that light and that hope......but constant pain is such a strong pull in the direction of dark.........
i haven't written much here lately as i know from the lack of response at anything but happy posts are not what people want to hear.....
pictures and posts of roses and 3 precious little boys are what people want to see and hear.......
i so wish that was the real story of life all the time, but sorry to say the pain way overwhelms everything else most days and nights......
may the light of the moon and balance of the equinox bring me strength and more hope......

Sooooooooooooooo true

All beauty of this world is wet with the dew of tears.

www.gratefulness.org
WORD FOR THE DAY
Tuesday, Sep. 9

Ingenuity

who says there is nothing to wonder at in the world.....besides the roses, sun, moon, stars and the coming of day and night....there is the imagination of a 7 year old.....
Liam decided that if he tipped over the hand cart, put the big wheel on top he would have a means of transportation for his cousin who enjoyed his afternoon story time on the sidewalk being driven up and down....
those big shots and their limos have nothing on this ride !!!!!!
these will remain two of my all time favorite photos.....by the way - i bought that big wheel for Liam's 2nd easter and it has become his favorite toy at nana's after 5 years !!!!! of course it's too small for him- but he doesn't care.... he likes to practice his skidding skills and now of course has a new use for it !!!!