hang in there

basically the message was -hang in there-healing takes time-pain doesn't seem bad enough to "disable" you or keep you immobile-so if you can tough it out surgery may not be the best bet-xray showed -nothing is worse-can't tell if the vertebrae is healing by an x ray but he pounded on the site and i didn't jump or scream
it's very sore
and there are many things i can't do with this side of my body but he says it will eventually heal......how long?he won't give any kind of timetable - it could be weeks - or months - hopefully not years ......
i have so much cell damage and trauma and bruising in my ribs due to prednisone use that produces lots of pain so it would be almost hard to notice the absence of this one area of pain if i have the surgery
sooooooooo it's wait and see again- he wants to check things out in another month
meanwhile i'm wearing a pain patch which makes me pretty exhausted all the time so my muppet sleighs are still on the fireplace and the bathroom has Christmas angels spread about.......
i am so tired of not doing anything and am feeling very isolated and discouraged that life amounts to restingk, resting and more resting.....and i'm not a tv person and have massive allergy problems in my eyes so can't read.....
basically -it sucks !!!