HIGH ANXIETY

I always wanted a tattoo but not necessarily the way i got a few today.... it was mark-up day where they do a CT scan and mark the areas to be radiated....tiny little dots that are permanent tattoos....
i did make a mistake in going alone as my anxiety level was really high because of my broken shoulder and also a new medical procedure also raises my panic attack threshold....being in that donut hole even for just a little while is something i can hardly stand.....
Of course i made it through....with lots of encouragement from the nurses and technician who kept telling me ..."you're stronger than you think.... relax"... etc...I forgot my ipod which may have helped...just wish i could get thru these things with less anxiety and trauma...
my shoulder is hurting a lot and i'm left with a pounding headache....
one more day - one more step - and I DID IT .....
a new journey begins.....a simulation on monday and treatment begins tuesday for 6 weeks -5 days a week....